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                      this is my first fanfic for this fandom, so

                       please be gentle :see_no_evil: :heartbeat: i hope you guys

                       enjoy this piece. it’s a bit bleh, but i’m

                       still getting used to writing for these

                       characters and it’s been like a year

                       since i actually wrote something that

                       wasn’t due for school.

                       word count: 1,046

                      character count: 5,587

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                                  Adrien didn’t understand. His

                                   love for ladybug seemed so

                                   strong and developing a crush

                                   on someone new felt so wrong.

                                   However, he couldn’t help but

                                   get lost in the sea of blue, or

                                   how his heart raced each time

                                   they came around. They were

                                   like an angel sent to heaven by

                                   God himself, and Adrien couldn’t

                                   be happier.

                                   Yet, at the same time, he wasn’t

                                   happy.

                                   He felt as though he was

                                   betraying his lady, despite him

                                   knowing she’d never return his

                                   feelings. Each time his heart felt

                                   warm and his stomach filled with

                                   butterflies, the horrible feeling

                                   of guilt filled him more. It was a

                                   horrible feeling inside of all the

                                   bliss and peace he felt. An

                                   emotion that slowly

                                   overwhelmed the others. Every

                                   time he felt at peace with his

                                   feelings, it would eat at him until

                                   he felt horribly depressed. The

                                   battle he was having with

                                   himself was destroying him

                                   mentally.

                                  He thought about it all the time,

                                   wondering why he felt such a

                                   dread if the girl didn’t like him

                                   back. He needed closure. He

                                   needed to talk to the one who

                                   was holding him back. It was the

                                   only way he’d actually be able to

                                   accept these new feelings he

                                   had.

                                   He needed to talk to Ladybug.

                                   With the knowledge of her

                                   loving another, he figured it’d be

                                   easy. When he finally called to

                                   her to meet on top of the Eiffel

                                   Tower, he knew it wouldn’t be as

                                   easy as he had hoped. He

                                   hadn’t expected the anxiety that

                                   would settle into the pit of his

                                   stomach, how his hands shook

                                   as he peered over the city, how

                                   he was waiting to see her with

                                   panic sleeping through him.

                                   “M’lady,” he breathed out as he

                                   heard a gentle padding of feet

                                   and turned to face her. He wore

                                   a shaky smile, trying to cover up

                                   the terrified emotions he clearly

                                   felt. Everything about him

                                   seemed to be shaking- his

                                   breathing, his voice, everything.

                                   Ladybug wasn’t a fool, she knew

                                   her partner well. “What’s

                                   bothering you, kitty?” She asked

                                   him as she walked up to him and

                                   placed a gentle hand on his

                                   shoulder.

                                   He gulped and took a deep

                                   breath before closing his eyes.

                                  I think I may be falling for

                                   another-“ he began, his eyes

                                   opening once again to meet her

                                   gaze. “I know you will never

                                   return my feelings, but it’s still

                                   so hard for me to just move on...

                                   It’s really affecting me these

                                   days. Every time I see this other

                                   person, I feel butterflies and

                                   pain all at once. It’s taking such

                                   a huge toll on me.. I barely sleep

                                   at nights.. I-I.. I don’t know-“

                                  “Chat... I hate seeing you so

                                   upset like this... I can tell it’s

                                   really messing with you. You’ve

                                   been so distant lately, very

                                   serious and straight to the job.

                                   I’ve been worried. I’m glad you

                                   talked to me. You need to move

                                   on.. I’m sorry I can’t return how

                                   you feel, but you know my heart

                                   belongs to someone else.. and

                                   now so does yours. You deserve

                                   to be happy with someone who

                                   can make you happy and return

                                   your feelings. Tell them how you

                                   feel, I’m sure you won’t regret

                                   it,” she finished up with a small

                                   smile, slowly pulling her partner

                                   into a hug.

                                   He had tears streaming down

                                   his face as he hugged her back,

                                   pulling her close to him and

                                   burying his face into her neck.

                                   You truly are amazing,

                                   Bugaboo.. I don’t know what I

                                   would do without you,” he

                                   chuckled softly, pulling back and

                                   wiping his face.

                                   “You’d definitely lose your head

                                   if it weren’t for me,” she teased

                                   with a warm laugh. “I’m glad I

                                   could help you, Kitty,” she

                                   whispered, reaching up to flick

                                   his bell. “I should head home,

                                   and so should you. I’ll see you

                                   tomorrow.”

                                   With one final hug, they both left

                                   to go home. Adrien felt like a

                                   weight had been lifted off of his

                                   shoulders; he felt like he could

                                   finally breathe. He slept like a

                                   baby that night.

                                   The next day, as he walked up

                                   the stairs of the school, Luka

                                   came up to him. “Hey, Adrien,”

                                   he greeted him, his hands in his

                                   pockets as they now walked

                                   together.

                                   Adrien felt his throat clo.

                                   It was unexpected- usually Luka

                                   walked with Juleka, Marinette,

                                   and their whole group, so Adrien

                                   raised an eyebrow, trying to

                                   guess why he was coming up to

                                   him. “Oh- hey Luka!” He

                                   greeted, smiling kindly. “What’s

                                   up?” He asked him.

                                   Luka didn’t seem so happy,

                                   more like intimidating. “Look..

                                   Are you jealous or something?

                                   Of me and Marinette?” He asked

                                   him, crossing his arms over his

                                   chest. the question threw Adrien

                                   off, causing his heart to race.

                                   “Wh-what? What do you  

                                   mean?” He asked, stopping in

                                   his tracks as he turned to look at

                                   him. “I’m not jealous-“ he

                                   muttered, an obvious lie. Even

                                   he could tell it wasn’t believable,

                                   which caused him to cringe

                                   slightly.

                                   “Why? Marinette’s heart

                                   belongs to you. You

                                   have no reason to be jealous of

                                   me. Yeah, I like her,

                                   but I can’t compete with you. If

                                   you want to date her

                                   so badly, talk to her,” Luka

                                   grumbled. It was clear he

                                   wasn’t wanting to say these

                                   things to him.

                                   Yet, Adrien was confused.

                                   “What? What.. no, I’m not

                                   jealous of you, I’m jealous

                                   of Marine-...” He trailed off, his

                                   heart racing as the

                                   confession slipped past his lips.

                                   “What?” Luka said, his

                                   eyebrows raised in curiosity and

                                   a bit of shock.

                                   With a heavy sigh, Adrien closed

                                   his eyes. It was his plan for the

                                   day to get the

                                   information that had been

                                   weighing so heavily on his

                                   heart these past few days out.

                                   He had to say it. He

                                   rubbed a hand over his face

                                   before breathing out the

                                   words, “I’m not jealous of you

                                   because I’m jealous of

                                   Marinette.”

                                  Luka still looked a bit confused,

                                   he was slowly piecing the words

                                   together. “Wha-

                                   Adrien, why are you jealous of

                                   Marinette? You

                                   literally have everything you

                                   want-“ he was cut off

                                   before he could finish, the

                                   words Adrien saying

                                   causing him to freeze and

                                   simply stare as he

                                  ed everything in his

                                   mind.

                                  “But I don’t have you.”

                                  And then he ran.

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